Tuesday, November 10, 2009

The corn is still green on the other side

wedding 284 042509.JPG, originally uploaded by Ducky Doc.

A few months in Springfield Illinois have taught me more than a few things, not the least of which is this.
I decided tonight to stop counting the days until next year. Okay, I'm sure I'll want to count them again when I have a bad "medicine" day. The point is that I realized I was counting away the days of my life. Each day that I've been here I've found that there is something wonderful about the current time. Living in the future defeats the purpose of living at all.
I know I sound all philosophical and all, but hang in there.
I miss my Kentucky peeps, but I really like my Illinois peeps too.
I'm pretty sure the magical wonders of facebook, email, and video chat help that a lot. I've come to realize that I shouldn't flitter past the current moment in hopes of getting to what I think is in the future.
I found out that my (fabulous) brother and sister in law will soon be moving too. Maybe in the not so far off future they could be moving quite a bit farther away. Who knows. It just goes to prove that the things that you take for granted could be totally different at a moments notice. I can't imagine what the future has in store for me, and I can only hope that I am able to embrace it with open arms.
I am sorry that I was so trepidatious about moving here. I have made what I hope are fantastic life long friends. I have been taken care of by people who didn't even know I existed months ago. I thank them. I thank them immensely. I am not sure that they can ever know how much they have truly meant to me by just being their wonderful selves.

I have learned to go where god takes me without question or hesitation, he will take care of me there.

Psalm 37:4,7
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass ... Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him

“Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”

“I can't control my destiny, I trust my soul, my only goal is just to be. There's only now, there's only here. Give in to love or live in fear. No other path, no other way. No day but today.”-RENT

For Tabitha-- “Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today.”
James Dean

“Every man has his own destiny: the only imperative is to follow it, to accept it, no matter where it leads him.”
Henry Miller

Romans 14:5
One person regards one day above another, another regards every day alike. Each person must be fully convinced in his own mind.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Picking myself up and dusting myself off.

Fire dancer, originally uploaded by Ducky Doc.

A quote from an E-mail forward from my wonderful aunt. Seemed very appropriate right now.

What if you did have the power, the reach, and the glory?

What if you were given dominion over all things?

And what if eternity lay before you, brimming with love, friends, and laughter?

Yet still, one day, in all your radiance, bubbling over with giddy excitement, you tripped, fell, and got hurt - really hurt.

Would you give up on all of your dreams? Would you hate yourself? Would you forget life's magic and promise?

Or would you shrug it off, look ahead, and exclaim that it's "just a flesh wound"?